merry xmas

Sometimes it's nice, just to hold someones hand again.

I don't have words of my own so I'm using someone elses (Starting with the good things)

(proceeding with the bad days)

 

I posted two pictures, because I thought the uncolored one looks better.

You'd be the one I'd put My trust into, If I were thinking to myself, a random thought of You would make Me smile. You're presence would make Me nervous and I'd always want to hold You're hand when You're around, I'd glare at You from the corner of My eye when You're not looking and I would not get enough of Your smell. I'd want to curl up in Your hands when I'd feel cold because You'd be warm. I'd love the way You  would talk and I'd love the way You would smile when You'd see me. Every sad and/or romantic song would remind me of You and You'd you always manage to make me happy. I'd love the way You would guide Me to the right way and would fight for me.You'd never know what I feel and I'd never know what You would think. I'd always feel as if You would be looking right into my soul, when You'd actually just be looking at me. I'd love the color of You're eyes and the way you'd be built. You'd walk with pride and you'd always make me feel safe. You'd make me fall but You'd help me up. I'd cry if you'd leave.

 

The thought of losing You would make me cry, the thought of Me leaving and You staying would make Me miserable. You'd inspire me, You'd make me go weak in the knees. You'd be perfect. Every time You'd make Me feel weird in the stomach while thinking of you, I'd break something because I would not let myself feel anything towards You. You'd never really understand. You'd tell me I'm beautiful. You'd hold me. You'd care. Youd' never know.I'd only love the thought of you. I'd worry for You if You'd be hurt and I'd take care of You if You were sick.You'd inspire me. You'd cook with me. You'd laugh with me, You'd be more of a man than any other man could ever be. You'd open doors for me and You'd pick up stuff that I'd drop and You'd always catch me when I'd fall cause You'd know I would be clumsy. I'd love your laughter. You'd be My best friend, My only lover, My only person. I'd have to let go of You. I'd never want to let go of You. You'd be my dream and only my dream. You'd make me write all these words. You'd be trustworthy. You'd be intelligent .You'd be funny. You'd make me repeat some of your qualities many times, You'd make me want to talk to you all the time. You would make me impressed by how many words You would make me write about You, though I would think I don't even feel anything for You.. We'd have our inside jokes and people would look at us weirdly. We'd play like children and We wouldn't care less what by-passers would think.I'd love the way You'd discover me and be fascinated and amazed by every new thing You  would find out about me.I'd love the way You'd keep retelling me the moment We'd meet.I'd be a drug-addict and You'd be my drug and I'd need a dose of you every single day, because otherwise I would be very sad. I was broken when you found me.

Is this of what I've felt, Feel or will Feel. Who knows. Or does this even exist in my world. Probably not.Yet maybe.

Oldise and newbies

21.11.10

 Horror

 Anger

 Fear

 Regret

Sorrow

I remembered these. I did those quite a while ago.  Just drew some emotions and drawing them as angels seemed rather effective and dramatic. Enjoy.
Seems to me, that I like these winged creatures. If I look at my header.

I was bored

Bold what is true

My personality:

I’m loud.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
For the most part i don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink alcohol.I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My appearance:

I wear makeup sometimes.
I wear a piece of jewellery at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I have braces.
I change my hair colour often.
I straighten my hair often.
I have a piercing.
I have small feet

Relationships:

I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships:

I have a best friend.
I have at least ten friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend

Experiences:

I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been on a train.
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve gone scuba diving.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music:

I listen to R&B.
I listen to country.
I listen to pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedy until i hate it.
I hate the radio.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television:

I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I’ve seen and liked the O.C.
I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.
I’ve seen and like Americas Next Top Model.
I’ve seen and like Popular.
I’ve seen and like 24.
I’ve seen and liked CSI.
I’ve seen and like Everwood.
I’ve seen and like Spongebob Squarepants.

Family Life:

I get along with both of my parents.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.
I have at least one step brother/sister.
I have at least one half brother/sister.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my home.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

Hair:

I’ve been brown.
I’ve shaved my head.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve been black.
I’ve been red.
I’ve been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.
I’ve ironed my hair.
I’ve braided my hair.

School:

I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principals office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed a test.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed math.
I’ve failed science.
I’ve failed another class.
A teacher has called my parent

Posters

 So I just walked up into this art store, bouth some markers and some paper and started doing posters.

Here we see red hot chili peppers.

 System of a down

Kurt Cobain

Serj Tankian